I have went back and forth on this for a long time now, but.... Ama will be going to public school.... The both of us are really excited, when I told Ama she jumped up and down and told me that I was the best mom EVER!! And me... well I was trying to not feel guilty about being excited about having a break throughout the day!
As far as which school she will be attending, she has been on the waiting list for the Charter School for a while now, but they had no room for her in the first grade, if I were planning on staying here I would put her in a private school, but I don't want to go through the long application process only to pull her out a couple months later. So for now she will be going to the Calhoun County Elementary School, the school is actually about a 15 minute drive from where we live, but there is a bus that runs that she can ride on. (Although it is also possible that she has to be on that bus around 6:30am.....wowzers!). School starts this coming Thursday, August 4th!! We are fixin' to do some school shopping, Ama will have to wear school uniforms, which I like, It's khaki bottoms, and for the top, a polo shirt that is either red, navy, royal blue, white or khaki.
I also would like to wish my sister, Hanah, a very Happy Birthday!!! Today is her 16th birthday... My sister has such an awesome heart, I think the world of her! Happy Birthday Hanah, from Weston, Ashley, Ama and Abi!!!
Other than getting ready for school, not a whole lot of anything is new with us Tabor girls! : )
* I had a great time in Indiana last week!! Visiting with family and friends and spending time with Cale was SO good for me! And I actually really enjoyed driving home on Friday all by myself. I LOVE to drive, so I had 9 and half hours of nothing but being by myself in a car with the radio up, loved it... As soon as I got home on Friday I washed a load of laundry and repacked and was beach bound. The beach is SO relaxing, we got beach chairs and put them right where the waves can come up and get you a little wet. Just sitting on the beach listening to the waves was so therapeutic for me. Especially at night, we sat down there again and watched the sun set, it was so pretty. I had so much fun just being able to relax and have fun at the beach. It's nice to have a break from kids every once in awhile. I'm enjoying sleeping in : ) Just being lazy... going on long bike rides...
* I'm getting a new phone soon.... The new Thunderbolt that came out, I'm excited!! When I do get it, I was told that I can use that phone somehow with my laptop and get the Internet... so I am actually going to be saving money by cancelling my house phone and Internet : )
* I am pretty darn proud of myself as far as this weight loss thing is going. I don't have a scale to weigh myself, but I know I am losing inches. While back in Indiana and at the beach I didn't just drink water, but being back at home I strictly only drink water. My eating is good and I'm working out. I am determined!
* In about 2 and half weeks I will be spending the weekend here, I am SUPER excited, but a little nervous. We are doing the Extreme Ziplining tour, which is like a 5 hour tour, it includes 19 zip lines and 20 sky bridge tree walks!! We will be staying in a cabin and having fun for my Dad's 50th birthday. I have never done anything like this before, but I'm really excited about it : )
* It's amazing what all you can get done with no kids around. My house is sparkling inside it's so clean, I even dusted and shampooed carpets... I don't think this house could get any more clean. So now that I have a CLEAN house and still no kiddos, I'm going to enjoy a few chick flick movies all by myself!
I know that God has a plan and purpose for everything in our lives I understand and realize that fully. I just wonder sometimes why I feel as though I have been a failure at being what God wants me to be, I feel like I have missed the mark that was set out for me. That is how I have felt for awhile because I seem to mess up alot and then instead of just being truthful I get scared and just lie about it knowing that it only makes things worse. I have caused alot hurt for a while now and I wish life had a rewind button but it doesnt so I am fixing what I have messed up big time. I have had a reality check hear lately and realize the way I was acting and treating people around me and also not being open and honest wasnt getting me anywhere. So I am working on doing a complete change around and no matter what being honest and open and trying to restore things back to were they were before I started making huge mistakes. Mistakes can hurt alot they can cut deep but one is alot easier too forgive then when you mess up over and over. I feel right now like I am trying to patch a wound that is huge with a tissue paper, thats what I feel by myself. Then I realize that God is right there beside me the whole time and with him on your side its like going into the operating room and getting sewed up and doctored up. I am trusting and believing God for complete restoration and a complete change in my life I am honestly tired, disgusted and sick of the person that I have been in the past. That isnt how I was raised that isnt what I learned growing up in church, and that certainly aint what my Mom and Dad raised me up to be. So I am done and im changing no matter what I am going to be open and honest and fight and claw to become the man God wants me to be. Then when I do that I believe that it will make me the husband and dad that i need to be. I should be the spirtitual leader and i dont feel like I am anywhere close to that, Ashley has been that leader almost our whole marriage and Im working on my end to become that man. I have like right at 90 days in this country and that is my goal to fix everything that I have messed up on and dig deep in Gods word and become the man that God wants me to be. I know that with God all things are possible. Whats really bad is I have always put on a show like everything is great and everything is fine when behind all that I havent been what I know I should be. I know this is a different blog but I wanted to write because I felt like I needed too and it helps to write things down. I love Ashley, Ama, and Abi more than I can put into words and i am horrible at that, I also miss them so much and thank everyone for all the prayers and support. This has been the hardest time of my life and when I get back to the states I will have been away from my family for a year and a half. That is no fun at all, I just wanted to let them know that I love them and miss them and cant wait to come home in October. I promise that I am already a different man and I will continue to be a different man. Love yall and please keep praying thank you.
Saturday afternoon we went mudding (Ama's tee ball tournament was rained out)... we had a BLAST!!! We started off by playing around in the mud with the Polaris Ranger, and then we drilled a hole and tied a piece of plywood to the back of the Ranger and had some serious fun!! Here's a few pics ; )
Sunday evening the girls and I drove to Franklin, Tenn. and stayed in my grandparents house, then got up Monday morning and made the drive to Mount Vernon, IN. It felt good to be back in Indiana, it's "home", it's familiar, it's where family and friends are. It feels good to see all my friends... I have MISSED them...
Getting to spend time with my brother Cale has probably been one of my most fun things. Since being older and both of us having moved out of the house, I don't get to hang out with him much anymore. We went to the movies to watch Transformers, I LOVE going to the movies, escaping reality for a short while ; ) I also just have to throw in here real quick... I beat Cale in 2 games of corn hole!!! Barely... but it counts! I'm sure he will want a re match with the corn hole queen this evening ; ) I'm having a lot of fun at home, spending time with family is always great. Nothing like staying with Mom and Dad and having fun.
Today, I got to spend some time with an amazing friend (Rachel Mohr : )). We hung out in the pool and solved world's problems! I have missed being able to hang out with a friend and just be real. It's so nice to not have to put on that everyday mask for people and hide the dark parts. Life is hard, and I think how God works sometimes is so amazing. He has taught me a lot here in the past year and a few months, and I have been forced to look at myself in the mirror. At some point in life I lost myself, when I quit my job and moved to Georgia it was seriously the BEST thing I have done for myself in a long time. I followed my heart regardless of what others thought, and I'm finding myself again. I'm having fun. I have found motivation, I'm ready to get back into shape, I'm picking up some hobbies, that I love. I'm learning to love myself again, to be confident in myself again. I am wonderfully and fearfully made. Maybe Weston going to Korea was so that God could do some work on me. I don't understand myself most of the time : ) But it's who I am, and it's okay that I'm not perfect. I have faults just like everybody else. Sometimes I put so many expectations on myself, because the world thinks I should do something a certain way, and instead of telling myself that I am failing, I'm going to embrace my failure, give it to God, and I want to totally rely on him. I have a tendency to live my life to please others. I don't like hurting people, and I like to be accepted, and I hate it when people are mad at me.... I know this blog is kind of everywhere. My emotions here lately are everywhere. I'm the type of person, I like to be real. I like to be honest. And right now for me, I'm going through a storm in life. But I'm ready to pick myself up and focus on me. I said at the beginning of this year that this was going to be my year. My year to "fix" me, and it's been hard, I have lost sight of it a few times. But I'm here again, and I'm more motivated than I have ever been. I needed today with a friend, that I know I can be real with and I won't be judged. God placed her in my life and so many things she said today spoke to me in so many different ways... thank you Rachel for your friendship ; )
I only have a short while left here in Indiana, I head back to Georgia this Friday early morning! My kids will stay here for a few more days, and I am getting a well deserved break! I'm excited about this weekend I'm going to the beach with my Dad and Amber, we have a beach front hotel and I am SO excited! I love the beach, and I can't wait to take a long night walk on the beach. There's something so calming and peaceful about being around the water, listening to the waves, I love it.
For as long as I can remember I have never liked water... and if I do drink water it HAS to be ice cold. When I was in basic training they made you drink a whole canteen of faucet water after PT and I would literally gag and it took all I had to not let that water come right back out. I have been a huge Coke drinker, or Dr. Pepper... or really anything with flavor : ) A few days ago I got one of the worst headaches I have ever had, I stayed in bed until 1pm holding my head, and only opening my eyes when I had to put another video on for Abi. (Who stayed in bed with me all day, and asked Jesus to take her mommy's headache away : )) I hadn't eaten or drank a thing all day so I grabbed a bottle of water and ended up chugging it, and then another, and miraculously my headache went away. I think I was really dehydrated. The humidity here has been horrible, and it's been HOT! So after that I have started drinking ONLY water (I'm so proud of myself for that), and lots of it. I have tons of energy, my house is sparkling, I have been more involved with my kids, instead of driving somewhere here in town I want to ride my bike there, and I am working out, and actually enjoying it! I am determined to not buy any more soft drinks. After seeing how great I felt just from drinking water, I am now motivated to make better eating habits. It's almost like a switch went off in my head and I feel fabulous ; )
Me and the girls took a bike ride today and stopped at the park along the way, my girls LOVE to swing!! Hope you have a fantastic rest of the day!
*The girls and I got a surprise in the mail this past weekend from my mom!! Thanks Mom!!
Ama's new shirts!
Abi put her new outfit on as soon as she opened it! (The color looked perfect on her!)
And mine : ) I love the shirt on the right...
* The girls had a play date at the Cooper's again this week, my girls love playing with Ryleigh! Ryleigh has lots of babies and baby things and a big kitchen with lots of cooking and play food, so Abi really enjoys playing with all the toys! I am very thankful that God gave me a friend here!
* This past Saturday Ama had a morning tee ball game and as usual, I was in the dugout. I'm the one who keeps the batting order and I get the kids batting helmets on and make sure their laces are tied, I find their hats and gloves and get them ready to go out on the field, I make sure they are constantly drinking something, especially in this heat! Well this last game, it was the last inning and Ama was being super whiny (not like her), normally she's talking with the other players and laughing, but she wanted me to hold her, she said she didn't want to play anymore and she was hot. Well I deserve the mother of the year award because I told her we were all hot and ready to go home and that she had to bat one last time and we were done. So I put her helmet on, gave her her bat and sent her to home plate. She got her hit and rounded 2nd base and next thing I knew I was running out to her because she was leaning over and throwing up. I got out there and got her helmet off and she was so lethargic, she was pale, her eyes looked really weird, she was so weak, and she had water and spit just continuously coming out of her mouth. (It freaked me out a little). A dad that was on the field picked her up and took her to the shade and we got her something to drink and a little snack and they put ice packs down her shirt and soon after she started looking herself. But it was an eye opening experience, and of course I felt awful for not recognizing that the heat was effecting her. I was trying to keep up with the batting order and keep the kids settled, and get kid's helmets on and ready to bat. It was very humid that day and I don't think I realized how much the heat can effect a kid just like an adult.
* I received the photo book that I made for Ama's tee-ball coach!! It is perfect and I'm excited about it. I took pictures at practices and games and made a photo book for him. The first page in the book is a thank you to him and I'm going to have all the kids on the team sign their names!
* We are getting super excited about heading to Indiana here really soon! Can't wait to see everyone : ) I still can't believe that my sister is turning 16! Crazy...
*Abi has to watch home movies EVERY single day, for a while it was only the video from Disney World, now it's Hanah's performance with Seeds Of Faith, the beach, VBS, and the 4th of July movie. Keeps her occupied for a good hour so I can get some things done, so I don't mind ;) The only t.v. that she likes to watch is Dora, she loves Dora! But for the most part she still sticks close to me, doing whatever I'm doing. She prefers to clean the house and wash the dishes than play! I really have to watch her though because she happily does Ama's chores when Ama tells her to!
* My brain has been on overload here lately... all of my close friends have something big going on in their lives right now, and I am constantly thinking about them, some things really exciting, and some things heart breaking...
* A few of the women from Ama's tee ball practice yesterday thought that my father was my husband... and then another of the women thought that one of the other ladies husbands was my husband, only because he was the one who picked up Ama and ran her under the shade tree and was helping me with her... weird... But speaking of tee ball, here is her team picture : )
Have a great week!!!!
July 7, 2011
FINALLY!! Finished the Coach's gift for our tee-ball team : ) I have spent a lot of time on it and I'm excited about giving it to him next weekend at our end of season pool party. I wanted to share a couple of pictures with you!!
*Today was a really good day for me! Abi FINALLY made it a whole night in her own bed. Usually sometime early in the morning I find her crawling in bed with me, but today she didn't wake up until 8:30, and she woke up in her own bed, I got some really good sleep, I woke up feeling good and refreshed!! I even started the day with a little exercise...playing disc golf!
*Speaking of disc golf, I threw one of my new discs a couple of days ago from about 250 ft. and unbelievably made it in the basket!!! It was the prettiest throw I have thrown yet and unfortunately haven't been able to throw another throw that perfect again. But I'm practicing!!
*I'm still so excited that my little Abi boo is swimming!!! Abi has to watch home movies every day and today (besides Mickey Mouse movie) we watched the fourth of July movie and I saw all the video of her swimming. It amazes me how well she holds her breath. And Ama, not only can she swim from one side to the other of the pool, but her Grandpa taught her how to do the backstroke! They are getting so big!
*I'm really bummed about my video camera, I dropped it on Monday and cracked the lens... I still can't get over it, I love that video camera...
*Today the girls and I went over to the Cooper's house for a playdate, all three of us had a really good time. The girls get along really well with each other and love playing together, and I enjoy a friend to talk to! It felt really good to get out of the house today and be social.
*Speaking of friends... I miss my friends back in Indiana, a few of them have really been on my mind here lately and I NEED to call them. I'm getting excited about coming home to visit everyone, and hopefully have a girls night with some friends!!
That's all the randomness on my mind for now! I have been super blessed this week... God is so cool ; )
Saturday morning I went to Chehaw to play Disc Golf with Papa and Mr. Dave, while my Dad was teaching me how to play and telling me which discs to throw and how to throw them, it was alot of fun! I had some horrible throws and I had some really good ones! That night I dreamed of nothing but playing disc golf, and I was so sore the next day!! They say I have the Disc Golf itch : )
Sunday morning we woke up and Amber brought up the idea to go to the beach for the day, so we packed up in the car and headed for the beach! It was alot of fun, although we could have done without the seaweed and jelly fish. I like to see where my feet are stepping and you couldn't see a thing because the seaweed was thick, and this time the jellyfish were green, which was a problem because of the seaweed, but thankfully noone got stung! While we were there we met a family on the beach, they had an 8 year old little boy named Enzo (love his name!), they had the biggest cat (Jasper)I've ever seen in a kennel on the beach, and they had a chocolate lab (Indy) running around with them and just loving the water. The lady, Sally, said they were touring the country, they are from Oregon and they put their stuff in storage and they are traveling wherever they decide to go, they have been traveling since June 7th I think she said... she is an artist so they are blessed with the flexibility and privilege to be doing what they are doing right now, she also makes jewelry, here is her website if you want to check it out! http://sallyjean.com/ (You can also find the picture and link to her store on the right hand side of my page!) I really enjoyed talking to her and her family and I pray that they have safe travels and a wonderful adventure! Here are some pictures from our day at the beach!
Ama striking a pose!
Abi took her straps off because her shoulders were getting sunburned... She LOVES the sand!
A weird looking dead fish that washed up on shore.
Jellyfish
Monday, the Fourth of July!! A few firsts happened on this day for us! We woke up and I made a big deal out of the holiday, the girls are still young and really don't know the significance, but they were excited, and we got dressed in our red, white and blue and prepared for a fun day. We had some amazing barbecue and ribs, and then the girls went swimming with their Aunt Sheila and Uncle Mitch (thank y'all by the way, they had so much fun with y'all!!). Abi has been fearless when it has came to the water, and I said earlier this summer she could swim if she wanted to, and she wanted to yesterday! Ama learned how to swim this summer and she can swim from one end of the pool to the other, and now Abi knows how to swim! Abi swims under water, and she kicks her little legs and goes, I am so proud of my girls! Ama, yesterday, learned how to do the back stroke... and another first for Ama, we went to watch the fireworks! Normally she would scream and yell and cry and we would have had to leave. But Mr. Ritchie brought some military headphones that were used for shooting, they helped a ton! It was alot fun because she actually enjoyed them and clapped.
Abi swimming!!!
And finally, my husband... : ) Weston for a while now has been wanting another tattoo... seriously he's addicted, this would be his 3rd tattoo and it hasn't even been a year since he has gotten his first. We have not had the money for him to get one, nor would we have money for one anytime soon, so he offered to work a 24 hour CQ shift for a guy and the guy paid him $100.00 to do it. So he had extra spending money for himself that he earned and he was getting a tattoo... for the past two days he has been asking and asking for me to go online and look at a certain tattoo. I went online and looked at it and was not a huge fan of it. So I told him for where he was wanting to get his tattoo at, maybe an arm band? He calls me this morning (and wakes me up) asking if I want to get on Skype and see his tattoo, I asked him what it was and he said a tribal deer head, immediately an image of some deer skull or something pops into my head, and I was getting mad, but when I got online and saw it, it wasn't anything like I thought it was. I snapped a picture of it while he was showing me and here it is!
His goal is to one day have a shoulder sleeve, and he said he can add different tribal pieces to it... he better keep volunteering to do 24 hour CQ shifts then!!
My discs came in! For my birthday I got a Disc Golf gift certificate and got to pick out a few of my own discs and a bag. Here they are:
These are the four discs that I ordered.
And above my four discs are some discs that Dad gave me to help me practice.
Front view of my first disc golf bag...
And here it is full of discs and ready to go!
I went out today and threw all of them a few times, but it was SO stinkin' hot out there!! Mornings and evenings will be the best time for me to go throw : ) Just wanted to share with you!! I hope everyone has a great Fourth of July weekend!!
